I’m lying all curled up at one corner of my bed, the only thing that is audible to me right now is the sound of my fan and that of some night creatures.
It’s been so many days since I’ve not been writing anything and as I’ve no clue how to pass the night today, I thought what’s better than writing?
I satisfy myself by saying so because a few people I prefer talking to usually sleep in the middle of the conversation.
So here I’m with my permanent saviour; my diary and a pen.
I consider a paper and a pen as my saviour, which might seems dramatic to some of you or a considerable idea to others.
Funny isn’t it, how small things can help you in dealing with toughest time.
Let me make it clear, my disturbed sleep-wake cycle is not considered as a though phase of my life.
All of us have our own journey and each one of us is battling daily on our level.
During this battle, we meet so many people and a lot many we lose and that’s how it works. Not everybody you’ve had come across in life will stay with you and that is for sure.
It’s inevitable not to get attached to anyone in life but thinking that they will serve as a shield while you fight your battles is incorrect.
Something as temporary as a “human” cannot be made your permanent saviour.
I’m not dragging you towards negativity by saying so nor am I against love or any relationship but I strongly believe that being dependent on a person for fighting your wars is not going to help you for long.
I feel dependence on people is toxic for your own growth.
Why can’t we have a saviour that we can call our own?
Who will be there 24*7 whenever we need it regardless of the time or place we are in.
You must be wondering how is that even possible? How can a person be with us all the time and how can we own them?
Well, you can.
But not a person, your talent can be your saviour.
For me it’s writing, it helped me invariably to deal with the loneliness I feel at times because no matter how many people love me unconditionally, there are times when I feel unheard totally.
It doesn’t make me a victim or them a villain.
As i said earlier everybody has their own fights so they might be so busy in fighting their own that they will not be able to help you with yours.
For such moments you’ll be needing someone to help you to take you out of that zone of vulnerability.
Each one of us has lots of potential within, the real task is to reveal that for yourself and make it your power to an extent that you can convince yourself that in case when there would be no-one, this will be my guard, my protector.
It can be anything cooking, writing, dancing, singing, painting and the list is endless.
You might say who cares if we do something or not. How would that be helpful anyway?
Well, that’s what the idea behind this is, nobody cares what are you capable of doing and what not.
For example not a single person in my life asked me, why am I not writing blogs since so many weeks?
But did this affect me?
The answer is a big NO.
Because I don’t write it for people, I write because I feel better when I do and I know even if there would be no-one to listen, I’d have the power to express myself and let go all the negativity that is there.
Use your potential, turn your negative energy into a positive one, emit out that positive energy in the universe and all that would reflect back to you would be positivity and hope!!
Don’t pass sleepless nights wanting help from someone rather be your own help and make this world a brighter place to be in for yourself!
Barefoot I walked in the land of dreams,
Was brought to reality as I screamed;
I screamed of pain,
having found my legs caught in your chain;
Tired to feel that I can’t do it without your favour,
This time I’d like to prove myself wrong and be my own saviour!