After an hour of struggling with my restlessness, I finally got up from my bed and sat with my diary and pen (two things I can’t do without).
I was feeling too low, as if something bad had entered my bones and was crushing them into pieces.
I don’t have too many friends and the one I consider the best, I felt had changed or we don’t share the same bond as we used to share. That was the reason behind my low mood.
Can you relate to that one night when all your energy is drained and you are left with no capacity to even talk to yourself and the only thing that can sooth your soul is your bed?
And as soon as you hit the bed, your sleep ditches you like your teenage dream, where, when you were about to hear your crush saying those precious three words your mom woke you up with highest pitch of her voice!
Well, thats exactly how I was feeling!
I feel restless most of the time, sometimes I know the reason behind it and sometimes I go completely clueless. It is really difficult for homosapiens to be clear about their emotional status and probably that is why people are doing a PhD in such fields.
I guess, we have a tendency to complicate very simple things in life, hampering our own peace of mind and disturbing the most divine thing in the world… Our sleep!
I wrote that I felt things between me and my friend aren’t same anymore and I’m not happy about it. I wasn’t happy to an extent that it made me write this article.
Do you think it is worth wasting your time, energy and emotions on something that your mind is creating and the other person has no clue about?
Let’s take an example,
If we have a problem with our neighbor throwing garbage in front of our house, What do we do about it?
Well based on my experiences I will tell you what we generally do.
We talk about it with our friends, guests and then suddenly it becomes such a big issue that, this person takes over your mind 24*7.
But does this help you in anyway?
Talking about it with other people surely wont stop him from throwing the garbage in front of your house but confronting him and talking to him about it might!
But we don’t do it.
We don’t talk, we don’t try to take a step forward to seek the answers to our questions. We just assume.
Yes we assume things that aren’t there and make a big thing out of nothing.
A few years ago, I had a friend, someone had given her wrong information about me or I would rather say, half information and she misunderstood me. After which the only choice she made was to send me a text saying “I don’t want to be friends with you anymore.” Trust me on this, before that day, she used to call me her best friend!
That is just one example, we see thousands of such examples everyday.
We see people breaking their friendships & long relationships in no matter of time and why?
Because we often tend to jump to conclusions without even knowing a person’s situation.
We complain that they have changed or are doing something wrong to us but we don’t dare to ask why?
I think because we fear, we fear that their explanation might prove them right or even more terrifying, prove us wrong!
But is it so important to be right that we complicate everything?
Why can’t we say the things that bothers our peace of mind?
I think this life is too short to pretend.
We don’t have to pretend to be okay with something that we aren’t okay with.
We don’t have to pretend that everything is going well when your soul is in a constant state of restlessness because of it.
It’s okay to tell your best friend that he/she doesn’t seem same to you anymore.
You need to have courage to talk about it, after which you might find yourself completely wrong or stupid to even think that way, but tell me something;
Wouldn’t it be that one thing in life at which everybody would loved to be proved wrong?
Little by little,
As you let it grow;
Don’t you forget,
You always reap what you sow!
Don’t let the pool of doubts get you consumed;
Go forward and talk,
Before you assume!