After literally 2 sleepless nights, I slept well yesterday.
Today at 7:30 am in the morning I was tracing down the last two years in my mind while cozily curling up in my blanket.
Before you start reading further I just want you to think and stress over the last few years or months maybe and ask yourself if these years have helped to shape you in any way?
I was just wondering that my life has literally turned upside down in these years.
Everything I wished for happened.
Everything I wanted was given to me and slowly everything was taken back, be it things or people and I’m still doing fine, just the way I was before losing my grip on everyone and everything, that I once thought beats with my heart.
How sometimes we want a moment to cease, how we want some people always by our side and easily, in fact very easily we give them the power to change us forever.
Then this feeling of new attachments and the fear of your heart getting broken once again and this burden of pain that comes along with it, makes everything so slow and fills you up with this eerie silence, just like the crisp and silent afternoons of autumn. And you get so used to it that slowly you start embracing this dullness.
Of all the things that I have learned in my life, one thing I’m still struggling with is that, how to protect myself from attachment?
How to pull back my chains when I know that I’m falling down again in the same pit?
How to make these shoulders strong enough that the weight might get heavier but I don’t feel heavy?
How to accept love with love and cherish new bonds and not fear the future?
How?
We often push back the love showered on to us because we have this doubt of getting wet in the rains of agony once again.
But is it right?
Well! I honestly don’t know.
I asked you earlier to think and stress over the last few years or months maybe and ask yourself if these years have helped in shaping you in any way?
I feel everything good or bad that happens to us definitely shapes us in a certain way, only and only because we let these things affect us, only because we think that things and people are forever.
We often forget that it is impossible for things and people in our lives to be eternal, because everything we touch or see will eventually die but the moment that we live, that very moment is eternal, nothing can change the present that we are in.
The love, the pain the happiness felt in a moment is eternal.
The acceptance of the mortality of being and eternity of our emotions will help us in living a better life.
The past and the future is an illusion.
This very shift in the thought process will allow us to give and accept love.
To let go of the hurt and to live each and every moment in a blissful state irrespective of the good and bad experiences that come with everyday life.
The idea is not to be happy all the time but to accept that any feeling other than happiness is normal as well. The idea is to take life the way it is but to not let the change, change your individuality, and if it does then it should be for better, always for better!
Flying out of the window,
To a far away place;
This life which seems to have lost, will come back to you
But at its own pace!